I'm Selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, But if you can't handle me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best-- Well as my title says I'm a beautiful disaster. I've made a lot of mistakes and I'm paying for them. This is pretty much my journal, my thoughts and feelings out for the world to see. Talking to friends, you get judged, airing it out over ther internet people either stop and read or just ignore. So do as you please =)
I guess I can’t be too mad? I don’t think he realizes I wear my favorite shirt because it reminds me of HIM, I think about HIM constantly. I compare the two in my mind and I can’t help but regret the decision that left me without HIM. HE was the guy I see myself married to, the one that it has nothing to do about fucking but about making love and connecting. I play back ALL the memories I had with HIM (good and bad) and I can’t help but hope he’ll give me another chance. I need to fix myself. Not for either of their sakes but for my own. I will not self destruct. I’m forever strong.
I’m the type of girl that won’t walk away from a relationship unless I get closure… doesn’t matter if it was a six month thing, a four year thing or a nine yeat thing… glad to say I finally got two out of the way… I can’t wait to see what I can do when I focus all my energy and time on me finally.